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sincerelystesichorus · 7 months ago

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let's talk about that one scene in oops

(and fizzarolli in general bc me and my autism r obsessed with this scene and haven't seen someone break it down. also ft. blitz lmao)

just a general scene and vague character breakdown/analysis!

i first of all want to admire the perfect representation of best friends to enemies with blitz & fizz because ugh.

And like Blitz tells everyone this but the way it's so malicious here. Just the perfect simple dig and Fizz's little shit eating grin because it delivered how he knew it would sdfkjsdkf. Shoves Blitz to the side because really that's all he cares to say. Fuck you and what you did to me, bye bye <3 Fizz is so for talking shit and dipping (House of Asmodeus) I love how messy it is but also shows how he really doesn't hold malice for Blitz otherwise. Obviously we see this front and center later in the episode once they start reconnecting, but I like the subtlety and how he's so willing to snap at Blitz despite his usual anxiety with confrontation.

Blitz also knowing exactly what to say to really piss Fizz off once things escalate <3

(Fizz literally so smug and content with himself lmfao)

(smirk wiped off bc hey that's the thing i'm sensitive about!!)

But Fizz keeps his composure. And if you'll let me be alarmingly gay for a second, I love how his version of keeping his cool as a messy gay is managing to basically recreate this drag race confrontation in what is probably my favorite set of Fizzie lines.

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eat him up babes. also it's so important that that shitty coffee and fizz were on this side of the street for framing i'll talk about it more in a sec jfskjdfksf.

and now my personal favorite exchange of this entire scene that is criminally underrated imo:

love his face after this line. I SUPPORT DISABLED PEOPLES WRONGS sfjdlkfsdd. literally so fucking nasty with his clown wit but also so justifiable because yeah blitz did just pull this nightmare and dip in fizz's pov. i cannot wait for that to get touched on more likeeee why were they kept apart ugh.

and finally!!

this cut to blitz,, specifically the scarred side of his face is sooo good.

the face of a man who just achieved critical vicious mockery vs. the face of a man that knows he can only win this interaction one way now

Blitz does deserve a little violence maybe <3 Fizz underestimated his ass jjdkfsdlk.

Idk I just love how indicative this whole interaction is for their characters but especially Fizz, it's a perfect build-up for him. Fizz has major imposter syndrome with dual layers because of general haters but especially because of Mammon and Asmodeus. Not on any fault of Ozzie's,, we just see Fizz obviously thinks he isn't fully deserving of their relationship/his situation and the healthy dynamics of it and so do most major news outlets apparently askjfsk.

(full fizzy meme post & also i like how this is a special also like damn do u think they were also apart of the crossword??)

It'll be really interesting to see how his character develops in future episodes because I feel like a lot of what I've rambled about here has come to a resolution after 2 Minutes Notice in the musical special lmao. I really like how here when he goes to compose himself, this is how he does it.

Makes me wonder how many times him and Ozzie have had the self-worth and imposter syndrome conversation before it finally stuck in the Mammon Musical Special. I just love their relationship and how they compliment one another,, and how it projects into Fizz's other relationships because they're healthy for one another. Love my OTP love Blitz & especially love Fizzie. Obviously.

#long post #words words words #character analysis #character essay #helluva boss #fizzarolli #fizzarolli helluva boss #blitzø #helluva boss blitzo #fizzmodeus #fizzarozzie #bless any1 that reads this whole thing love u #helluvaboss #qb #qb writes

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deadpanwalking · 4 years ago

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Thanks, that's pretty good advice actually lmao. Im not even getting ~validation anymore, just a lot of people w picrew pfps telling me about myself because I want the wrong members of [kpop group i know i kNOW] to kiss. i hate that this stuff manages to hurt all 3 of my feelings but imma try to keep ur prespective

I think @kendallroy's answer to this anon yesterday hit the nail on the head.

One of the most useful things I learned in therapy is that people who zealously go out of their way trying to prove that you are a Terrible Person are not acting in good faith, even if it dovetails with your self-loathing. They are casting you as the bad guy in some kind of cathartic psychodrama and expecting you to play along, which you are not obliged to do. Think about it. Most interpersonal conflict can be ameliorated by being accountable for your actions, making amends when they're due, and/or keeping your distance. Hell, sometimes folks just rub you the wrong way for no discernable reason (or unexpectedly hit a nerve) and you can have good, clean, passive-aggressive, petty fun venting to your friends about the Bitch Eating Crackers. That shit's normal.

What isn't normal? People who have convinced themselves that they're avenging angels obsessively trying to humiliate you because you are a card-carrying [checks notes] cringe ass nae nae neoliberal double supersecret probation crypto-TERF tomgreg fandom mom swiftie bimbophobic r*ylo anti-anti hentai exclusionary radfem. Like, even apart from the fact that none of it makes sense outside of an anaerobic Extremely Online environment, you gotta ask yourself what they're really trying to accomplish by telling you about yourself.

Same with anons, tbh. It really is about perspective. Like, the one from this morning clearly noticed that I like to Read so they opted for the “not as smart as you think”/“everyone hates you” powercombo and thought that would get me where it hurts—which it absolutely would, if it were coming from my editor, partner, or shrink. As such, they sounded like an anime villain who just read the Wikipedia page for “imposter syndrome” and rushed over to own me online.

#like i know splitting is an actual characteristic of several real mental illnesses #but it's also a feature of the cluster Z personality disorder these people have managed to synthesize in a lab and contract #anyway i hope your kpop boys kiss each other on the lips while your enemies are cast out of thebes in disgrace #anonymous #assbox

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lavender-lotion · 3 years ago

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Fanfic Writer Asks

I was tagged by @asarcasticwitch - thank you so much!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

737, which is an ugly number :(

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

1,890,054 words, which ... AH I might actually get to 2mil by the end of the year!

3) How many fandoms have you written for, and what are they?

thank you, ao3 dashboard for this handy list:

Teen Wolf (TV) (377)

X-Men (Alternate Timeline Movies) (187)

Marvel Cinematic Universe (93)

Glee (29)

Young Justice (Cartoon) (11)

Kingsman (Movies) (9)

Original Work (9)

The Avengers (Marvel Movies) (8)

Criminal Minds (US TV) (7)

Thor (Movies) (6)

Deadpool (Movieverse) (5)

Weird City (TV) (5)

X-Men (Original Timeline Movies) (4)

Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters (Anime & Manga) (4)

Ragnarok (TV 2020) (4)

Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies) (3)

Teen Wolf (TV) RPF (3)

Iron Man (Movies) (3)

The House in the Cerulean Sea - T. J. Klune (2)

Venom (Marvel Movies) (1)

Stranger Things (TV 2016) (1)

Captain America (Movies) (1)

Fate: The Winx Saga (TV) (1)

Power Rangers Ninja Storm (1)

X-Men - All Media Types (1)

Percy Jackson and the Olympians - Rick Riordan (1)

Riverdale (TV 2017) (1)

X-Men Evolution (1)

Push (2009) (1)

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

With You, I Belong

Mates and Marriage Proposals

The Perceptions of You and I

(baby) maybe that matters more

Breathing You In

5) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

ughh so, fair warning, I have a lot of works. I definitely do not remember all of them, however I do have four works tagged as Unhappy Ending and then another nine works tagged Ambiguous/Open Ending, which is way more than I’d thought I had!

however, there is one fic that stands out in mind when I think about which of my works has the angstiest ending! Heed the tags :)

And Now?

Stiles Stilinski finds out who his soul mates are by setting one on fire.

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

ughhhhhhhh I truly do not know???

7) Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

I don’t write many crossovers at all! I have some mcu/teen wolf cross overs, I have a teen wolf/glee cross over plotted (that i’ll probably never write), but my strangest is probably this teen wolf/x-men cross over!

what-ifs (don’t fuckin’ matter to no one)

Teen And Up Audiences | No Archive Warnings Apply | M/M | X-Men (Alternate Timeline Movies)Teen Wolf (TV) | Logan (X-Men)/Sheriff Stilinski | Logan (X-Men), Sheriff Stilinski, Stiles Stilinski | Memory Loss, Telepathy, Mentions of War, Implied/Referenced Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Child Neglect, Grief/Mourning, Telepath Stiles Stilinski, Telekinetic Stiles Stilinski, Nightmares, Cuddling & Snuggling

There’s somethin’ there. Somethin’ that has him sleeping curled up on his side with a pillow tucked to his chest, somethin’ that has him splittin’ up his food ‘fore he eats ‘cause he don’t need as much as a baseline. Has him turnin’ to tell someone shit that ain’t there. There’s just...there’s just somethin’ there that’s missin’ and it shouldn’t be missin’.

8) Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

sometimes! I don’t write a lot of smut because I actively dislike writing it, but the smut I do write is super super soft and sappy and full of emotions lol

9) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I respond to almost all of my comments! comments i won’t respond to: negative comments, unsolicited criticism, comments that aren’t relevant to the fic itself, comments simply asking for more

I love love love responding to comments! I love every single comment that I get and I want to show how much I appreciate getting them, and personally I think responding to comments is the only way to do that! everyone has different comment philosophies, but for me, if someone is taking the time to comment on my fic like I so badly want them to, I think it’s important to respond to show my appreciation!

10) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

aha YEAH I DO. this past weekend I actually got a number of shitty comments and had to file two ao3 abuse reports for harrasment (: I love it

I am no stranger to hate comments. I write copious amounts of age difference fic. I write copious amounts of incest. I am not going to apologize nor am I going to feel bad for enjoying either.

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

ughhh I sure as heck hope not!

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! I have a number of them :) I always always do my best to make sure it’s linked to the original fic, AND that I add a tag noting that there’s a translation!

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I have made a few attempts! the only successful attempt is there's nothing i wouldn't do to make you feel my love which is a collaboration with @flightinflame, not quite a co-write!

14) What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I am unable to answer this lol I don’t have an all-time favourite. mutli-shipping forever.

15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

god okay this is such a good question! imma ramble about a few so bear with me here! (i may have 700 posted works but I also have a few hundreds wips & ideas floating around in my gdrive, too)

gone & past - this is a starrish wip i’d started in 2017. I ended up deleting it from ao3 to rewrite it and never got there, but I have about 20k of content! I built my home, inside of you - thorki human au with college jock thor and high school dancer loki. i’ve got a start and nothing else Sheriff Stilinski Gets Some Sweet Sweet Lovin’ - massive wip where... well, the sheriff fucks his way through the entire pack. I want to write it but. trans allison au - this is an au where allison is trans and that changes the entire season 1 canon. it features stallison, petopher, and a looooooong ass outline that will never exist beyond my wips You Fill My Heart (With Such a Gentle Love) - this is a stetopher a/b/o au with pregnant omega stiles and alpha pair petopher falling in love. it started as a labour of love to someone I no longer have in my life. I have about 30k, a full outline, but idk. makes me sad to think about it they slipped briskly into an intimacy from which they never recovered - this is my big x-men first class rewrite that I honestly don’t think i’ll ever finish. I have a few thousand words, a full outline, but no love lost for cherik so. doubtful Physiotherapy (I'll Be Your Baby) - this was a fic I was SO excited about, and then it kinda flopped and stayed a wip because I didn’t have a plan or the motivation to finish it. it’s a winterspider human au with amputee bucky and science twink peter that I adore the premise of but who knows breathing you in chapter 2 - I have a massive second chapter planned for this fic but the first did so good so fast I am way too intimidated to write more in case everyone hates it lmao

there are more arjgoirjeg there are so many more but these are the bigger ones I can think of right now!

16) What are your writing strengths?

ughhhhh I hate answering this because I have, like, seriously bad imposter syndrome around my writing BUT I do think i’m able to weave poignant backstory into narration & i write strong, distinctive narrative voices!

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

literally I can’t write settings at all. I don’t know how people vividly describe settings but I absolutely cannot do that and it’s one of the reasons I haven’t delved into original fiction. I need to write the town my characters live in?? fuck that imma just use a location we’ve seen on screen & let readers fill in the blanks lmao

I am also shit at long fic. I don’t have the mind for long and interesting plots, and I don’t have the focus to write long fic (which is why every long fic i’ve ever posted has taken me literal years to complete smh).

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

I like it! both as a reader and as a writer. as a writer, I generally only use a few words, or small sentences that can be understood by context, and I generally don’t

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

the last thing I wrote and posted was this one:

Languish

It was a really, really hot Saturday, and most of the school was outback, enjoying the sun, not caring about the heat, and having the time of their life.

Everyone but Bobby, of course, who was melting away.

“I just want to remind everyone that I make ice. I am the Ice Man. I am not built for the heat and soon enough I’m going to melt away into nothing.”

20) What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

this is another impossible question! I have a few I really enjoy, but I really don’t think I have a favourite that stands out above the rest!

i’m tagging: @4magicandmayhem @insertmeaningfulusername @midrashic @wynnefic @ikeracity @stronglyobsessed @elledelajoie @wolfnprey & anyone else who sees it and wants to do it! seriously! go ahead :)

blank questions below the read more!

1) How many works do you have on AO3?

2) What’s your total AO3 word count?

3) How many fandoms have you written for, and what are they?

4) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

5) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?

7) Do you write crossovers? If so, what is the craziest one you’ve written?

8) Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

9) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

10) Have you ever received hate on a fic?

11) Have you ever had a fic stolen?

12) Have you ever had a fic translated?

13) Have you ever co-written a fic before?

14) What’s your all-time favorite ship?

15) What’s a WIP that you want to finish but don’t think you ever will?

16) What are your writing strengths?

17) What are your writing weaknesses?

18) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?

19) What was the first fandom you wrote for?

20) What’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

#lavenderlotion #my writing #writing tag #writing meme

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pureheroin · 4 years ago

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idk 12/24

today was my dogs birthday, and i tried to do my best to give him a great first birthday because my parents did such a horrible job doing so for almost any of my birthdays, but then i remembered he is just a dog and this is probably just like any other day for him. i have been feeling so incredibly horrible about my body, even more so though normal recently. i feel like i cannot take a single full breath in because i have been binge eating so excessively recently that my stomach gets in the way just when i am trying to inhale. continues to deep sigh. i ate two family size bag of potato chips and two chocolate bars within the past 36 hours. i literally dont know what the fuck is wrong with me. i need this to pass, but then i think about how i go through such intense phases of eating healthy or somewhat healthy before falling back into a binging phase where all of my ‘progress’ goes down the drain. sigh. i feel like i have tried to explain this to my boyfriend, who i love so dearly, but it just feels so wrong to try and explain stuff like this to my partner (even though i want him to know me, this just feels extremely private and a bit like i am also facing some kind of imposter syndrome, are any of my problems real (rhetorical question), am i actually facing these issues lmao). idk i wish my hobbies were something i could do something with but then once i try and do something i enjoy it feels like i am succumbing to the terrorizing capitalistic society we live in america today that wants me oh so badly to be a fucking part of (fuck u capitalism) and that is a whole other (and primary reason for me being so fucking overwhelmed constantly). anyways i refuse to take antidepressants because one of my biggest fears is gaining weight which is really fucking sad that i cant love my body enough (again, no response needed to this part, im not a fucking dumbass) and that i am have become such an easy pawn in this game of society the government and corporations have created for me. theres this horrifying path of hating my body that has been painted for me and it is the biggest reason i am constantly battling these same goddamn thoughts every fucking day of my life. anyways, happy bday roman, hopefully ill finish this dress i need to sew before i get bombarded with dumb shit i have to do and people i need to ‘see’. (i wish i could be left the fuck alone for like 3 months before anyone try and talk to me again). also one last thing, if u see me or a random person in public literally leave me the FUCK alone like holy fucking shit i dont want to talk to you just because i am at a dog park with my dog like dont fucking give me ur life fucking story at least if u are a fucking r*p*bl*c*n like i do not want to fucking hear it and u can get the fuck away from me. anyways again idk what this was but tbh it kinda felt ggod to type out xoxo love u sza ty for the new song bye

#gay

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gooseking · 3 years ago

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I’m tired but feeling better than I was earlier but my brain is just racing a lot and I want to ramble. But before I ramble, I do want to complain a little bit and say that acne sucks and it hurts, especially when it’s on your EYELID. Just WHY

Anyway ramble time

I honestly cannot explain my love for my own comic and characters, and I feel like I annoy people when I try to explain the plot/characters. But to me, it doesn’t feel like something I made. Somehow it just feels like a media that I have a lot of knowledge on and love, just like Steven Universe or The Owl House. When I start talking about it, I can’t stop. It’s my passion, and when I’m passionate about something, I just have a really hard time shutting up about it. I’m just constantly thinking about Hiraeth and the characters and for once in my life, I’m admiring my own work. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve reread the script, how many times I’ve looked at the characters�� concepts and artwork, how many times I’ve listened to a song and thought of the characters, or how many times I’ve thought about an animatic with Hiraeth when I hear certain songs. While I’m at work, that’s all my empty head thinks about while I’m doing the mindless tasks of prepping and portioning food. It honestly appalls me that people share the same passion with me that is my own work. Seeing people reblog my art, seeing people engage with me about my characters, seeing people be genuinely interested in the story, in the characters. It makes me feel heard. And for those of you reading, if you’ve ever reblogged my art, liked it, or in general interacted with me in any way considering Hiraeth, I want to thank you from the very bottom of my heart. It truly makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside when y’all interact with me. I try my best to interact the best I can on here, but lately I’ve been busy with work, getting my life together, and putting out content, and I hope to be able to interact with mutuals more in this near future.

Going back on the train of Hiraeth, I want to be able to put out more information about it, but most of the stuff has major spoilers in it, and I just feel like it would ruin the immersion of the comic. I want to have y’all be attached to the characters and the story so that I can crush your souls later on (don’t worry, it’s crushing mine too lmao). I’ve been so attached to the characters because they ARE me. They help me cope. I push my problems onto them so I feel like I have control over them. I remember doing a psychoanalysis on Hiraeth a while back, but after talking it out with people and really thinking about it, that just scratches the surface of why I’m doing this. But I’m of course not just doing it for me. I’m doing it for you guys too, because I know I am here for a reason. I’m here to help other people through my art; to be the person I needed growing up, to be the person I need right now. And I think that might be why my other comics and ideas failed. They weren’t helping me. If it doesn’t help me, how in the hell is it going to be able to help other people like me? But I have never felt such passion for anything until now. I don’t know what exactly triggered the chain of events to lead up to me making Hiraeth, but damn I’m glad it’s happening. Was it my first major surgery? Was it stress? Was it college? Was it the overwhelming and cummulating events that have made my life a living hell catching up to me? Was it my breakup? I don’t know, but damn has it sparked something in me I didn’t know I had.

I’ve always struggled with self confidence and seeing the worth of my work. I’ve never been happy with my art, save for a few pieces here and there. That’s changed drastically since about a month or 2 ago. I had a bit of imposter syndrome at the beginning of the year, lasting a good few months. I saw my art and I wasn’t happy at all with it. I looked back at my other art I’d done and saw how far I’ve come, but there was still that feeling of, “I’m not good enough to be here. My art isn’t up to par with myself, so it can’t be up to par with my teachers”. My teachers and peers would say good things about my art, but I would sit there thinking that it looked like shit. But I’ve been looking at the designs I’ve made, the art I’ve made, the stories I’ve wrote, and I’m proud of myself now. I feel like a new person since making Hiraeth. I feel better. So so so much better. I’ve been in a better headspace and I hope that it may do that for some of you guys too.

I’m getting really tired now, and if I keep rambling, I’ll probably just repeat myself a lot, but my closing thoughts are as follows:

Never forget that you are loved. Never forget that people care for you. You matter, and you should be your first priority. Eat some food, drink some water, take care of yourself. Do what makes you happy, regardless of what others tell you. Life is short, so try to make it the best experience. This goes for anyone out there, mutual or not, if you need someone to talk to, my inbox is always open. Thanks for reading my rambles, and with that, I’m out.

#random #random post #random thoughts #rambles #rambling

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meggannn · 7 years ago

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fic notes: garrus’s crew

miscellaneous notes on garrus’s crew of the parentia that never made it into “down girl” part 1

1. lucret xamius, xo

mid-30s, high class tier class

from a long standing military family like the victuses; similar expectations of naval command passed down to her

like miranda in professionalism/workaholic sensibilities, more like ashley in temperament/personality

in retaliation for a strike her uncle carried out against the hegemony, batarian slavers attacked her family’s villa where her part of her extended family lived, and they kidnapped (young relatives) those who could be sold and killed those who couldn’t (elderly relatives). 7 were taken, 3 were killed. this occurred when she was about maybe 27.

before that point, she felt kind of pressured to uphold her family name by staying in the service, but after that she began taking her job more seriously and decided to stay past her mandatory service

was a little bitter about getting turned down to captain the parentia herself, but she respects garrus, so she doesn’t mind serving under him. is privately hoping that after he (presumably) becomes a spectre, she will be asked to helm the parentia permanently.

2. thilma, pilot

mid-20s, lower tier class

never picked a last name for her oops

shy and a little quiet until you get to know her.

she’s a little starstruck by shepard and garrus because she’s never been this close to war heroes before but once they get to know her she’s much more relaxed. mostly she just has a severe case of imposter’s syndrome which affects her ability to interact w the crew but she’s very easy to talk to one-on-one

like joker in that she was top of her class in pilot school. her drive in school was more out of her desire to escape a poor/unprotected colony, so it surprised her when she made top of her class, but she just puts her head down and works her ass off and only comes up for air once someone puts a hand on her shoulder and reminds her to eat

3. azymadus, cook

late 60s, lower tier class

never picked a first name for him lmao so i just hc all the crew calls him by his last name and only garrus and lucret know his first name

served in the first contact war, retired in the years since

didn’t give a shit about humans/was against their expansion/serving in government roles. after the battle of the citadel he started to come around, after commander shepard ‘died’ he felt a little more sympathetic. re-enlisted when the reapers hit palaven, killing most of his family and destroying his mandible. due to his age and health he wasn’t approved for active combat, so he became the cook on whatever ship would take him just so he could take his mind off of the deaths of his family

garrus knew him as the field chef on menae and thought he would enjoy being ‘put to use’ as it were after the war so he wouldn’t have to go back to palaven, so garrus requested him personally

4. stilx, gunnery officer

late 30s/early 40s, lower tier class

stilx is a nickname off of her much longer surname. hates her first name. you’ll never get it out of her; the one on her record is probably a fake anyway.

oh man she’s my favorite. she left a bad home life as soon as she turned legal. went off the grid to escape her mandatory service. removed her colony markings to disappear more thoroughly. joined a gang for several years, hated it, went on the run from them too. it was in the gang she learned how to take care of weapons; but she’s only seen active combat in omega-style gang wars. after that, for money she boxed for several years and entered mma-style underground fights, and eventually gained a name for herself under a fake name. unfortunately she was deep in the owner’s pockets, so years later when a bet went sour and her sponsor abandoned her, she ran back to the hierarchy for protection and in exchange agreed to live the rest of her “active years” (hierarchy law says this up until the common retirement age, until about 60/70-ish) in the service. so she sold out to survive in the end. never put her colony markings back on though.

has a huuuuuge thing for lucret but has kept it under wraps pretty successfully. the girl scout is three floors above her doing paperwork or whatever and she’s perfectly content down in the cargo bay cleaning the crew’s guns and out-drinking the guys in engineering. it only gets dicey when lucret comes down for her morning workouts around the same time stilx is checking the cargo and she has to resist her immense urge to challenge the ship’s xo to spar......

likes/respects shepard a lot. if shepard ever wanted to work out alone/without prying eyes, she’d clear the cargo bay for her with just a word. she understands what it’s like to be forced to work for somebody you hate just to survive, and she’s just glad a woman like that is still around.

5. yelfrex, tactics officer

late 20s, middle tier class

more like joker in personality. talented, excelled at tactics training in the navy, but is aimless/not very driven or inspired, doesn’t really know what to do with his life, kind of gets pulled around wherever life/his friends/his parents take him.

left the hierarchy early to join a civil rights group (that he got talked into by a friend) because he’s against the mandatory service law, but the reapers cut that short. he was part of garrus’s task force and lost both feet and hearing in his left ear when the first wave hit menae, and was out of commission for most of the rest of the war.

garrus found him after the war ended and asked if he wanted to serve on the parentia, hoping it would give him some stability/a sense of something to do as he recovered

looks up to garrus because of his sense of humor/capabilities/everything garrus did at such a young age. i have a feeling garrus gave him a bit of a pep talk when yel was having major career doubts post-war so that.

he’s kind of fascinated by shepard bc she joined cerberus and quit them and got arrested for war crimes and now she’s like this huge hero, like that doesn’t happen to everybody, haha that’s messed up but in a cool way, i wonder what she’s like lol? so that’s why he asks her so many invasive questions in that one scene in the comm room. he’s also trying to calm his own nerves/ease the tension in the room because the boss has never gone into a mission alone before

6. elaria, ground team

late 20s, middle tier class

garrus’s favorite to take in the field, though he tries not to let lucret know this

quiet, calm, professional, but a fucking beast in the field, very reliable, won’t hesitate to tell garrus if she thinks he’s making a bad call

not unlike shepard on the outside (sans the trauma shepard gone through at that age), but much less experienced obviously and a bit more easy going/humorous once you talk to her

7. quernus, chief engineer & technician

early 30s, lower tier class

left the service early (unauthorized) and then

was kind of a ‘plan c’ choice for the crew because the first few candidates were unavailable, and he knows it so he’s determined to prove himself by taking his job super seriously and never joking around, proving he deserves to be there, etc

therefore doesn’t take yelfrex’s joking around very well -- quernus has a sense of humor, he just doesn’t mesh well with yel. personality clashes, plus a bit of resentment on quernus’s side because yel is a higher tier than him and knows he has more protection in his position

has a crush on elaria but due to their experience difference/desire to he doesn’t think it’s professional to bring up

and that’s all i can think of for now

#down girl

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1. What’s your favorite way to spend a weekend? >> I don’t have a favourite way. 2. What type of music are you into? >> The majority of it is some form of rock or metal, but I like a pretty wide variety. 3. What was the best vacation you ever took and why? >> *shrug* 4. Where’s the next place on your travel bucket list and why? >> I don’t have a travel bucket list. 5. What are your hobbies, and how did you get into them? >> I don’t know if I have any hobbies, really. Having a hobby requires some measure of dedication, I think, and I don’t think I’m dedicated to anything enough for it to be considered a hobby of mine.

6. What was your favorite age growing up? >> I don’t have one. Age wasn’t really a thing I paid much attention to except for the fact that being under 18 meant I couldn’t do shit. 7. Was the last thing you read digitally or in print? >> Digital. 8. Would you say you’re more of an extrovert or an introvert? >> Introvert, I suppose. 9. What’s your favorite ice cream topping? >> Crumbled Oreos. 10. What was the last show you binge-watched? >> I don’t. 11. Are you into podcasts or do you only listen to music? >> I’m pretty much only a music listener. There are some podcasts that interest me -- Radiolab, for example -- but the idea of just sitting there listening to disembodied voices for an hour at a time is kind of abhorrent to me. I’d probably be better with podcasts if I had a craft hobby, like knitting, because then I’d have something else to do while listening. 12. Do you have a favorite holiday? Why or why not? >> Christmas is my favourite, because I just enjoy it the most. 13. What’s your “Death Row Meal”? >> I don’t have one. 14. Do you like going to the movies or prefer watching at home? >> I like both. I usually go to the movies for things like space epics or anything else that I think would look amazing on a giant IMAX screen. Or when Sparrow and I go to see something together. 15. What’s your favorite sleeping position? >> On my side. 16. What’s your go-to guilty pleasure? >> I don’t have any. 17. In the summer, would you rather sleep with the window open or blast the AC? >> Sleep with the window open, although I do sleep pretty poorly in the heat. Maybe if the A/C was on very low... I guess. Doesn’t matter anyway, I don’t have an A/C in my bedroom. 18. What’s your favorite quote from a TV show/movie/book? >> I don’t have one. 19. How old were you when you had your first celebrity crush, and who was it? >> I don’t know how old I was, but I was randomly fascinated by Matt Damon for a while when I was very young. Still don’t know why. 20. What’s one thing that can instantly make your day better? >> I don’t know, I don’t think there’s anything like that. 21. Do you have any pet peeves? >> I have a lot of pet peeves. 22. Which meal is your favorite: breakfast, lunch, or dinner? >> --- 23. What song always gets you out on the dance floor? >> *shrug* 24. When you were a kid, did you eat the crusts on your sandwich or not? >> I assume I ate them, because I’m pretty sure if I had a habit of peeling crusts off my father would have punished me for it, and I’d remember that. 25. What activity instantly calms you? >> I don’t know if there’s anything like that, either. Mostly it’s myself that calms me down, and the activity doesn’t matter as much as the mental effort. 26. Ideally, how would you spend your birthday? >> I’m pretty fine with how I usually spend my birthdays. 27. What do you do on your commute to/from work? >> --- 28. Do you have a favorite type of exercise? >> Dancing. 29. What’s your favorite season and why? >> Spring. 30. What’s the best joke you’ve ever heard? >> I don’t know. 31. What’s the phone app you use most? >> Reddit is Fun or CloudLibrary. 32. Would you rather cook or order in? >> I’d rather order in. 33. Have your ever disliked something and then changed your mind? >> Oh, yeah, definitely. 34. What’s your favorite board game? >> I don’t have one. 35. How do you take your coffee? >> I don’t drink coffee, but when I did I either drank it black or with a little creamer. 36. What’s your most prized possession and why? >> --- 37. Is there any product that you couldn’t live without? >> No. There are a lot of products that it would take me a really intense adjustment period to get over the loss of -- computers usually fit the bill here -- but eventually I’d settle into equilibrium again. 38. Do you sleep with a top sheet? Why or why not? >> Yeah, but I can’t wear it in the summer because then even a sheet is too hot. 39. If you could have any exotic animal as a pet, which would it be? >> --- 40. Would you rather spend a day at the beach or poolside? >> Beach. 41. What’s your favorite thing about your current job? >> --- 42. What annoys you most? >> A lot of things annoy me on the same level. 43. What’s the career highlight you’re most proud of? >> --- 44. Do you think you’ll stay at your current company awhile? Why or why not? >> --- 45. What type of role do you want to graduate to after this one? >> --- 46. Are you more of a “work to live” or a “live to work” type of person? >> No. 47. Does your job make you feel happy and fulfilled? Why or why not? >> --- 48. How would your 10-year-old self react to what you do? >> --- 49. What do you remember most about your first job? >> Hating it. 50. Did you start working immediately after finishing school? Why or why not? >> No. I tried having a job while I was in school, because my father pushed me into it, and I was a complete failure at it and miserable besides. I got Social Security when I turned eighteen. 51. What’s the worst job you’ve ever had? >> --- 52. What originally got you interested in your current field of work? >> --- 53. Have you ever had a side hustle or considered having one? >> --- 54. What’s your favorite part of the workday? >> --- 55. What’s the best career decision you’ve ever made? >> --- 56. What’s the worst career decision you’ve ever made? >> --- 57. Do you consider yourself good at networking? >> I could be, but that’s a skill I never bothered developing because I don’t need it for anything. 58. What career advice would you give to your younger self? >> --- 59. Do you believe in having a “five-year plan”? >> I believe it’s a rational thing to do, but I’m not interested in making one for myself. That’s more Sparrow’s thing, because she has actual things to plan for. 60. How do you separate your work life from your home life? >> --- 61. When will you know you’ve “made it”? >> I’m not looking to “make it” anywhere. 62. Are you looking forward to retiring, or do you plan to work as long as possible? >> --- 63. Have you ever had “imposter syndrome”? >> Yeah. 64. What do you think about workaholics? >> I think that if someone’s passionate about their work, they should pursue that. The problem usually seems to crop up when they also try to have everything else -- a social life, a marriage, a family. If you put all your time and energy into your work, of course the other things in your life are going to go lacking, and when those things involve other people, that can’t fly. And then you get upset when the spouse leaves or the children treat you like a stranger. The fuck did you expect??? 65. What qualities do you look for in a boss? >> --- 66. Do you have a professional mentor? If not, do you want one? >> No and no. 67. Do you have a work best friend? >> --- 68. Are you into after-work happy hours? >> --- 69. How do you motivate yourself in your career? >> --- 70. What’s the best career advice you’ve ever heard? >> --- 71. What’s the worst career advice you’ve ever received? >> --- 72. When you started your current job, what most surprised you? >> --- 73. How do you pick yourself back up after making a mistake at work? >> --- 74. How do you deal with work stress? >> --- 75. What energizes you about your career? >> --- 76. What’s one work-related thing you want to accomplish in the next year? >> --- 77. Who has had the biggest impact on your career choice? >> --- 78. What does your family think of your career? >> --- 79. What’s the best thing you’ve learned in your current position? >> --- 80. If you could do it all over again, would you pursue the same career? Why or why not? >> --- 81. How much time do you spend with your family? >> --- 82. Who do you most like spending time with and why? >> Inworlders. Because. 83. Were you close with your family growing up? >> No. 84. How do you define your family now? >> Nonexistent. 85. What traits are most important to you in your family members? >> --- 86. Who are you the closest to and why? >> Can Calah, because he knows me best. 87. Do you want a family of your own? >> --- 88. What’s your favorite family tradition? >> --- 89. If you could change your relationship with a family member, would you? If so, with whom? >> I should have read through the whole survey before taking it, lmao. I can’t answer half of the damn thing. 90. What was it like growing up as the youngest/oldest/only child? >> I don’t know, I don’t recall it being like much of anything. 91. Does your family take vacations together? >> --- 92. What’s your favorite family memory? >> --- 93. What TV family most reminds you of your own? >> --- 94. Do you ever wish you were raised differently? >> Of course, but what’s the point of even thinking like that. 95. What’s the best piece of advice a family member has given you? >> --- 96. Do you wish you had more siblings? If so, why? >> No. I don’t see how having siblings would improve my life any. 97. Did you ever hide anything from or lie to your parents? >> Constantly. 98. If you had a family business, what would it be? >> --- 99. Do you and your family have any nicknames for each other? >> --- 100. What’s your favorite way to spend time with your family? >> --- 101. How do you show your family you love them? >> --- 102. Have you ever been to a family reunion? >> --- 103. What’s the most important holiday you spend with your family and why? >> --- 104. Who in your family would you describe as a “character”? >> --- 105. How do you feel about family events? >> --- 106. What’s something your family would be surprised to learn about you? >> --- 107. Which family member do you confide in most? >> --- 108. How do you deal with arguments between family members? >> --- 109. If you have children, how do you want to raise them? >> --- 110. What’s more important: family or friends? >> --- 111. Do you have any friends you would consider family? >> That’s not a thing I can imagine doing. I don’t really... get it, you dig. 112. Has your family ever pressured you to act a certain way? >> Yeah. 113. Did you ever get to meet your great-grandparents? >> No. 114. What personality traits do you share with your relatives? >> --- 115. What physical traits do you share with your relatives? >> --- 116. What stories did your family members tell you growing up? >> --- 117. How did your parents (and/or grandparents) meet? >> I don’t know, I think they just met in the street. 118. What makes you proud of your family? >> --- 119. Who’s the newest member of your family? >> --- 120. What can always bring your family together? >> --- 121. What’s a relationship deal breaker for you? >> --- 122. If you had only one sense (hearing, touch, sight, etc.), which would you want? >> I can’t answer this. 123. What is your definition of success? >> For me, it’s just... being content with where I am and feeling capable enough to take on whatever the future may bring. I can’t imagine anything more important than that. 124. Are you at all religious or spiritual? >> I suppose. 125. What are you most proud of in the last year? >> I don’t know, I haven’t really thought much about it. I do think I’ve reached a kind of equilibrium that suits me, which I am happy about. 126. What makes you feel most accomplished? >> --- 127. Who do you admire most in the world? >> --- 128. If you won a million dollars, what would you do with the money? >> I have no idea. Give it to Sparrow and she can figure out what to do with it. I’m a little repelled by the idea of having a large sum of money. 129. Which of your personality traits are you most proud of? >> Adaptability. 130. What’s the first thing you look for in a partner and/or friend? >> *shrug*

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